Hey Everybody...sorry for slackin' on the blogging, you know football season really got under way this weekend...a man has priorities you know :) And to be honest...I've been in a funk and here's what happened...
Last week Friday, I woke up with poison in my brain...for whatever reason I felt like a total piece of crap...not physically, but mentally and no matter what I did, I couldn't shake it. It even prompted my wife to call me out and basically say "hey loser...snap out of it"...And it wasn't in a nice way...Now when I get called out like that I do one of two things...Fight or Flight...and I got the hell out of dodge! I knew she was right...I mean I've been off work for two months and gave her my word that I was coming back full force...I was being a total loser! So here's what I did...I got in my truck and started driving...it had been a long time since I went for a ride alone...I opened up the sunroof...rolled down all the windows...cranked up the radio and I drove until I got sick of driving...I hate to admit it, but I even cried (I have to be honest with you all)...Now, my GPS didn't even register the roads I was on and I had no clue where I was (I had an idea of what direction I was going, but not too good of one)...on a side note, my wife just came in here and crop dusted me as I am typing...so forgive me for losing my train of thought :)...Anyway, after being so rudely interrupted, back to the story...The beauty of where we live in North Carolina is that we are only a ten minute ride from what feels like total country...I'm talkin' horses, cows and family cemeteries in the front yard of people's homes...and I started to take notice of everything around me...older folks working in their gardens, a man riding his horse down the street and an old guy reading a book on his front porch and I thought...What the hell is wrong with you Kev? I'm surrounded by the most beautiful things in the world and never take the time to appreciate them...I have spent too many days inside the house watching TV and forgot that life is still going on outside...I think I put myself into a slight depression by taking time off work (haha..strike that...not from taking time off work, but not leaving the house enough...we have to keep things in perspective here :) ).
I forgot how awesome the sunshine feels, how great the fresh air smells and how much I love being outside playing with my son...I let myself miss out on two months of life that I can't get back and will never do again...The fresh air and sunshine are magic and they don't cost a thing...I am a true believer that everything we really need is not man made...Let's soak it up and enjoy every breath we take.
So, I woke up today a whole new person...full of life and full of energy, just because I made the decision to embrace all of the things life has to offer...it took a long time to get rid of my poisonous thoughts about real estate and I'm glad to be rid of the demons...Yes I said demons, because you know what? We are our own demons and we make decisions and hide behind facades of who we think we are, but we're not those people...deep down we are full of life, energy and spirit, but for whatever reason can't let it show...I don't know if it's because we are embarrassed or our egos won't let us...but f**k that...Let's live it up!
Se Ya'll...KC
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